CLOSING “TIME”

{every new beginning comes

from some other beginning’s end}

If my mouth was anything but just a tool

that I have been using to speak like a fool

then I would express all the love in my heart

instead of the pain that has ripped it apart

and if I could say anything that was more real

I’d tell you about all that I need to heal

that feels like it’s just coming up now in waves

revealing to me why my mind misbehaves

and pulls at my smile to make it a frown

just like how it tries to keep me sitting down

instead of embracing my place in The Light

where God is just waiting for me to take flight

so I am in prayer and a fast to address

the places in which my life is still a mess

cuz this is a journey with Christ as my guide

The 1 that keeps cleaning me out from inside

Cuz every time that I think I have a grip

on my own without Him I stumble and slip

back down to the bottom of hell in my mind

where I meet the version of me that’s unkind

and where He has gone to bring me all the way

back up to the surface and the light of day

where I can feel peace in His loving embrace

as He wipes the tears that are streaming my face